This probably is not a very interesting article, this is mostly a personal update on what I’ve been up to recently. So read this only if you have a few minutes to spare.
A lot of things have been going on recently. One of those things, definitely, is the fact that my board exam is approaching and I am not entirely sure how I am going to do in it. There are several lessons in Mathematics that I haven’t entirely understood. There are also 18 sets of questions that we have to submit in order to get our admit cards to take our board exams, and there is no way around it. There are also several assignments that I have to catch up with.
Despite all the pressure for the exam, the thing that has me engaged the most is not anything related to it, it’s something else. If you have read my previous articles, you probably already know that I have been in multiple things for most of my life.
When I was in grades 5, 6, and 7, I used to write. I have written over a dozen poems, poems about everything. I was so much into writing that I had written a short novel in grade 7, the summary of which was published in a national newspaper. I wrote a few poems in grade 8 as well, but then I stopped writing.
Then came grade 9, the year of photography. I had been the “Photographer Guy” ever since I was a kid for all the weddings and major family events, but I had never thought of pursuing it as a career. But then in grade 9, I don’t know how exactly but I got into photography. I think it started when during a club event I was handed a camera because there was no one else to photograph. I did like taking photos even before this, but I think that was the trigger point.
That was the trigger point for getting me to be serious about photography. I used to watch YouTube videos about photography the entire day and night. Even when I used to be in my washroom, I’d be watching videos about photography for how to set the perfect frame while taking a photo; about the rule of thirds, leading lines, golden hour, exposure, shutter speed, aperture, composition, colors, and so many things. I used to watch videos even when I’d be doing my assignments and having food, and even while I’d go to bed to sleep. I’d sleep watching videos about photography and in the morning I’d wake up with a dead phone. And then I got a long multiplug adapter to get my phone charger near my bed so that I could watch YouTube the whole night and my phone wouldn’t die.
My brother would get really annoyed when he would call me to talk to me but I’d tell him about how cool getting this camera or getting that camera would be. I almost had him buy a camera we couldn’t afford. At a point, I was even researching film schools I could go to. I still receive emails from Everest Film Academy, New York Film Academy and some other film schools that I had filled forms to receive regular updates.
Then came along grade 10, the corona and code year. I remained in Birgunj, the city where I studied till grade 10, for most of the COVID lockdown period. I couldn’t go out, so I started using my computer very much. It started with binge-watching movies and web series, but then I got bored of watching because there was nothing interesting left that I knew of. So I joined LinkedIn.
When I joined LinkedIn, after a few weeks, I saw a post that was shared by one of my connections. It was about volunteering at an INGO. I thought I should give it a try since I had nothing else to do. So I shoot a DM to a co-founder of the INGO telling her that I wanted to volunteer. I told her that I wasn’t yet sure how exactly I could contribute but that I want to do something.
I wasn’t expecting it, but the very next morning I receive a response from her asking when I was free to set up a meeting with her team. I said, “Today evening?” Then we set up a meeting, I try all the different angles in my room for the meeting so that I’d look good, and I change into the only formal cloth that I had, and then finally we have the meeting. I was super excited and motivated and scared and nervous all at the same time, but it went alright. After a week I join their team as an English teacher for a student in Honduras. I taught her for about 2 weeks and then I realized that I didn’t really want to teach, maybe because I was having to learn Spanish which I was really struggling with.
And then I got into freelancing. If you don’t know, a freelancer is someone who is self-employed and works with clients on a project or task basis and doesn’t have a fixed employer. By then I knew how to build a simple but good enough website using both HTML, CSS, JS, and GoDaddy. So I monetized that skill. I made about $17 (about 2,000 NPR) doing that. It’s less, but it was the first money I made.
And then, I gave up on freelancing. Freelancing, at least when I started as a newbie to the industry, was very demanding. I would have to reach out to potential clients and keep applying for projects on UpWork and Freelancer and rarely get any clients. And even when I used to get any clients, they had no idea what exactly they wanted for me to build and I’d have to make countless nights. I was irritated and tired. So I stopped freelancing.
Then my brother recommended me CS50, a free computer science course offered by Harvard University. So I did some research and dived right in. Professor David Malan who teaches the course was amazing. I started watching all the lectures and doing all the problem set assignments and submitting them. I used to study till late at night and the whole day and not cook healthy because it was time-consuming. But my PC couldn’t keep up. It had only 2 GB of RAM and the lag in everything I did was really bad. So I couldn’t finish CS50.
And then I started learning how to build websites on my phone. And then I had to choose between getting a laptop and a camera, I choose getting a laptop because I really needed one for my online classes and to code, photography wasn’t really a priority at the time. And fast forward, I built a few websites, one of them you’re on right now.
Basically, a lot of things happened and everything that I ever got interested in, I got addicted to. I’d learn about every new interest all day long. Fast forward to grade 11, I started getting interested in, learning about and doing other things as well, but I was in control.
But now that my exams are close, I am getting back to being how I used to be. I am getting back into photography and filmmaking. Maybe the trigger this time was a video I shot with the team that I am a part of in school. We shot with the Canon EOS 5D Mark IV which is like a revolutionary camera in the photography industry.
This happens to me every single time. When I get interested in something, I get so much into it that I often skip taking care of important things to learn about it. The upside of that, however, is that I learn soooooo many things, so many things that I wouldn’t have learned or known about if it weren’t for this addiction or this obsession of mine.
But now that my exams are close, I’m trying to focus. I must. I will.
The entire point of this article was to just write, to write about everything I have been thinking about these couple of days. I just wanted to in a way journal and braindump at the same time. This article got a little too long, but alright.
Anyways, if you read this super long article, thank you! Know that I truly appreciate you for doing this. If you may, let me know that you read it so far. It’d mean a lot.
I hope you have a great day/evening/night.